The Big Book of Blake

Subject: The Big Book of Blake Tue Mar 03, 2015 5:59 am

To those whom I know...

'There are so many of you I've met, I should hate to forget any of you. Most likely you will never see this, so I do this for my own benefit. A reminder in the years to come of who you were to me. My opinion may change over time, but the original words will remain so that you who helped me grow will not be forgotten. True to myself and my style, these will be categorised and alphabetised.'

Humans

(Lieutenant) Wesley Xavier Harding
'The only human I ever truly came to know and trust. I thought him to be a good man, perfect for me. He was my knight, my saviour, one on whom I could depend. But, I was not enough for him. I failed him as a friend and partner, driving him into the arms of another. Our relationship is at an end.' ~ As at 3rd March 2871

Vampires

~There are no Vampires to be mentioned at this time~

Werewolves

~There are no Werewolves to be mentioned at this time~

Shifters

(Rex) Edaelion Dean Silvu-White - Formerly Regina Eden Delilah White
'A terrifying and fearsome start to my life here, Eden and i did not start out on the best of terms. In my fear of exposure I turned her against me. Fearing her wrath should she ever see me again, I avoided her for some months before my need was inevitable. By a chance meeting we got to talking. I wouldn't say we're quite friends yet, but we seem to have some kind of truce going.' ~ As at 3rd March 2871

'We do not talk often, but I hold the utmost respect for my Rex. His recent... change is one I won't comment on. It was his choice and his alone. The ramifications of his decision are his alone to bear.' ~ As at 6th May 2896

(Auxiliary) Jagara
'I only spoke with her for a few minutes - long enough to find out I couldn't live in the house in Monet Quarter. She seemed indifferent, wary. But who am I to judge? I hardly know her.' ~ As at 3rd March 2871

(Bellator) Kenai Standing Bear Makwa
'This one is funny. He's light-hearted and free. He seems nice enough and I love his dog, Pandora. She's gorgeous. Unfortunately this bear has seen me in both my forms. I really hope he keeps my secret.' ~ As at 3rd March 2871

(Epror) Niko Santos
'This one is tricky. He's my best friend, but the word friend doesn't seem like enough to describe our relationship. He's the leopard. The canary. The Beast Tamer. He's the guy who broke out of hospital, then walked the entire night through the city with me to get back to shifter lands. He's so strange and interesting and just so easy to talk to. He's one of those friends you never want to let go of. He's a gentleman. I've never once doubted him, but I still keep my secret from him. If I were to willingly tell anyone it would be him. But maybe that's a long way away. I'm just not ready for the big reveal yet.' ~ As at 3rd March 2871

'The more time I spend with this leopard, the more attached I find myself becoming. We talk, we laugh, we even offer each other new places to go. Is this what friendship feels like? If so I don't want it to stop.' ~ As at 6th May 2896

Mora

~There are no Mora to be mentioned at this time~

Subject: Re: The Big Book of Blake Tue Mar 03, 2015 6:02 am

Entry #1

Tuesday, 3rd March 2871

My, my, how time flies...

Hello to you, little diary. I've never once kept a diary before. Probably because my thoughts have been too dark, my experiences too dull to ever find comfort in the written word. Nonetheless, I have lived almost a century and the memories become more and more difficult to recall. Some, more painful, memories will forever linger in my mind, refusing to be forgotten. This is for those happy times and the times of learning, so I can return to these words in the years ahead and recall both the fond memories and my insights from the less-than-pleasurable encounters. I suppose I should start from where this all began. Not with my birth, but with the day I came to Lunari...

It's been nearly a year (approximately nine months if I am correct) since my first day. I left the city I'd spent fifteen long years in. The rumours of a Shifter clan were founded and I took my chance on the borders, greeted by the ferocious Tigress they call Eden.
Hiding in Plain Sight

From there I travelled to the little village in our lands, a place called Monet Quarter. I met two more felines here: Niko and Jagara. It's safe to say being so surrounded by those of the genus who had once wanted me dead gave me quite a fright. But the two were extremely accommodating and answered my every question and query. I found a house in the village, one I hoped to turn in to a General Practise. Niko and I explored the building, finding a few interesting things within - including an injured canary and her mate.
Questions and Queries

One week later, when the little female canary was close to being released, I chose to spend an evening in the wild - my very first. I'd lived human so long it was almost too hard to return to the shell after indulging my lion. I was found by a bear called Kenai. We spoke for a time, tried to understand one another. He was the first non-feline shifter I'd ever met. It was so strange and new. I lied so easily to him, but in those lies were nuggets of truth. How much he understood I cannot say, but at least the conversation was a change from my daily routine.
Adventure Is Out There

Astridax was my next travel spot. I'd overheard it being spoken of and thought to see for myself. I stupidly tried to go cliff-diving in rough seas, but was saved by a human called Wesley. We shared a kiss in the lighthouse while we watched the storm roll in. He seemed so nice and genuine that I just had to see him again.
Damsel In Distress

Upon my return to the mainland, I set about my task of renovating the house in Monet Quarter. I did as much as I could without breaching my allowance and authority as a Mender. By chance I happened upon the Regina and took the opportunity to put my plan to her. Thankfully she was more than supportive of the idea, offering the numbers of workers to help with the job. She still scared me, but she was much nicer than the first time I met her.
You Scratch My Back

Spending most of my time on the house meant I didn't get out much. Wesleys call was so very much appreciated. I really made the effort to dress nicely for him and he bought me a rose. We went to a movie - something about a boat - had dinner and ended our night in a little hotel. Despite the locale of the finale, it had been one of the best nights of my life. I discovered a very new part of my self that I wished to explore once more.
You Drive Me Crazy and Love Is A Lie

Then winter came and with it a bitterly cold layer of snow. I hadn't built a snowman since I was very little, but Kenai was well up to the task. We created our haphazard friend of frozen water, giving him arms, eyes and a rather strange nose. I met his dog there too, Pandora. She was a lovely husky, running around with the same boundless energy of her owner. They're a perfect pair those two. Both grinning and enjoying life with their tails held high. I was truly glad for the day of respite and fun, it was better than any I'd had in decades.
'Tis The Season

So much has happened and yet so more to come. I found myself a job at the city's Pathos Hospital. The hours can be long and the tasks repetitive, but I get to work on people again. I get to save lives. Niko came in one day, all bruised and bloody from an accident at work. He had a concussion too. I got to talking with him, even told him about Wesley, but even in sleep something troubled him. I stayed late that night, just like I promised him. After he drifted off I came nd checked him every hour when suddenly he was gone. I lied and covered up for the fact that I'd lost a patient - I could've lost my job if anyone found out. But when I left the Hospital, there he was waiting for me. Together we made the long walk through the city back to Shifter Territory, talking all the while - we both needed to stay awake. I remember him giving me a pentagram on a chain, his suggestion to use it as a weapon if anyone got too close. I forgot to give it back to him. Does he miss it?
Head Trauma

In all this time Wesley and I were still dating. He bought us a house to get away from our lives and just be together. I really thought we were happy and we could have a life together. But I was not enough for him. I came home to our house to find Wesley in bed with another, more beautiful woman. He told me he never loved me, that he kept me around for the sex. He betrayed my trust and confidence and I don't know if I can ever come back from that.
Heartbreak Hotel

Right after that I ran for hours, ending up at First Century Lanes Bowling Alley. I tried to hide myself in the bathroom and cry, but luck was not on my side. I was found by Niko, who sought to console me even before he knew why I was upset. He truly is a wonderful friend. Without him I'd be somewhere terrible, maybe even dead.
Crying In The Bathroom

All this has occurred in nearly a year and yet I get the feeling it's not over yet. I just hope next year is a little less eventful.

Faithfully yours,

Mender Blake Rowan

Subject: Re: The Big Book of Blake Fri Mar 27, 2015 2:18 am

Entry #2

Monday, 23rd March 2871

So soon after my first entry, I find myself writing once more. Dear Diary...

I find myself very nearly broken. Wesley took something within me, played with it, used it to his advantage, then broke it. So often I feel so empty. I miss the feel of his lips moving against mine, the innocent yet slightly risqué touch of his hands on my hips, drawing me closer. I miss that strange flutter I got in my chest every time I saw him. I miss the feeling of being in love, where every little moment and gesture held layers upon layers of meaning.

Something is missing, there's a hole. But it's slowly closing, mending itself. Niko's had a lot to do with that, I think. I never did get the chance to thank him for what he did. He braved the perils of the ladies room just to sit with me and listen to me cry. He's the greatest friend I could ever have. If he thought he owed me for the events at the hospital, his superb care and kindness after my messy break up more than paid for it. But he continued further, keeping his promise and helping me finish the house. Together we built my bed, bookshelves and so much else. He helped me move the couches and armchairs. Next winter the fireplace will be clean and ready for use. He was so good, bringing me that fish. It wasn't his fault he didn't know I'm not much for seafood. But I gratefully ate the fish, piece by piece - it would be rude not to. I managed to paint the walls and show him how the canaries were doing. We've named them now, the male is Leonidas, the female Amelia. I think he truly enjoyed seeing them again, feeding them with seed from his hand. Leonidas still holds a grudge, but he eventually waddled up for some seed. They're only young still, but I think they might be having some young ones around soon. Amelia comes less and less frequently now, possibly building herself a nest. If we're lucky, they'll bring their little hatchlings to meet us, if not, well, we can cherish the time we were privileged to know them.
Little House of Wonderful Horrors

Things are very near done here. Only my gardens remain untouched. With all the larger, more pressing jobs done, I can take the time to truly enjoy this part of the project. It should be relaxing.

Painfully yours,

Mender Blake Rowan

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